So many changes, so little time

Life has been a world wind lately, I was asked to do "task force" for Marriott at a property in Des Moines, Iowa, of which I accepted and then left 3 days later... so there is that, on top of 2 weddings, applying for transfers, packing, and moving. I'm not sure what exactly possessed me to mix my life up a little (or a lot) and spend the month in Iowa, where I know exactly no one, but it has really been fun, and an adventure non-the-less. The next adventure of my life will be decided this week, of which I am so excited, nervous, shocked at. More to come on that when it is official.. or not, we shall see :). Regardless of where I am, I will be getting the every exciting task of finding a new place to live and then decorating!! Oh how I love decorating. (no sarcasm..none)

As part of my adventures around Downtown Des Moines, I stumbled upon 3 antique stores, of which I could have bought out. My mind was racing with ideas, new thoughts of how I would place things in my place, wherever that might be. In the end, all though I so desperately wanted to ship back a few doors, old windows, and about 34 different pieces of furniture, I settled on just a few things, all suitcase sized, and got out of there quickly. I can hardly wait to display the new items :) :) yay!

You may be wondering, my one reader, why I suddenly blogged, today, of all days. Well, truly I am procrastinating from a multitude of e-mails, trainings, and packing, but I also have a lot on my mind, and being that I am sitting at a coffee shop alone, really working on that focus thing, I thought I would share it with you.

In this whole process of applying for jobs, moving to Iowa for a month, etc I have been feeling a lot of peace about everything. I am literally living life day-to-day, trying not to stress on the things to come, and simply praying when I start to over-think things. I say, "God if this is not the right position for me, or the right place, or the right whatever, please don't let it happen". Trying to follow the will of God and not my own desires. It has been entirely more rewarding than I imagined.

There's the update.. so much more to come.. back to "focusing".

my life is a perfectly timed clock

Oh San Diego, something about you makes me really wish I was a fish, or maybe a crab. I love that feeling of excitement when you look out and see the fast ocean, and the sound of the crashing waves. If beach bum was an occupation, I would be absolutely okay with that. I was so lucky to get a few days off right around Easter and take a fairly spontaneous weekend get-a-way to San Diego. It was just what I needed, let me tell you, and the teary good-bye while driving away at the end of the trip says it all. You know the feeling of no plans, no cares, no deadlines. Just sitting or sleeping or snacking all day if you want, it was one of those weekends. I went in knowing that I wanted to spoil myself a little and enjoy every minute, and it was amazing. Every weekend, yes, please, thank you. I was able to see some old friends, make some new friends, and eat A LOT of awesome food. If I was a normal blogger, I would have probably documented the whole thing a lot better, but sometimes you just cannot encompass a feeling into a photo.

A few days prior I celebrated a birthday, my 23rd to be exact. Twenty-three. I know that to a lot of people that seems young, I have been told over and over again, but to me it's that age where I thought I would have everything figured out. Growing up I always thought 23 would be the age I would be when I got married, had my own house, really figured out life. Obviously, I thought a lot would change before this time in life :) but there is a saying that I have been thinking about a lot lately..  "Grow where you have been planted". Often I think of myself more as a tumbleweed, still looking for a comfy place, moving about constantly, but growing slowly over time. I have a hard time realizing that this is where I'm at right now, flourish and bloom here, now, not in 3 months, not when I move again, not when I'm older. Enjoy where I am at, look for ways to use my gifts here, be settled. 

God seems to be teaching me a lot lately about timing. Nothing ever seems quick enough or to my own planned pace. I have a whole list of things I would have liked to complete yesterday. I see my life differently than God has planned for me, I do not always realized why the timing is the way it is, but I try to remember that God has perfect timing, if I can just remember to give up my prayers and concerns to Him first and wait for guidance. I don't know where I see my life in 2 months, or in 2 years, or 20, but I know that my faith needs to be steadfast, I know that there is a plan for me, and that even the little things like getting the stomach flu, missing a class, and sitting in traffic, everything has been far planned in advanced. I need to only rest and enjoy the ride. Don't stress about the things you have no control over, but live your life to glorify God, pray for guidance, and grow where God has planted you... and enjoy spontaneous, perfect vacations, that only come once in a while. :)