my life is a perfectly timed clock

Oh San Diego, something about you makes me really wish I was a fish, or maybe a crab. I love that feeling of excitement when you look out and see the fast ocean, and the sound of the crashing waves. If beach bum was an occupation, I would be absolutely okay with that. I was so lucky to get a few days off right around Easter and take a fairly spontaneous weekend get-a-way to San Diego. It was just what I needed, let me tell you, and the teary good-bye while driving away at the end of the trip says it all. You know the feeling of no plans, no cares, no deadlines. Just sitting or sleeping or snacking all day if you want, it was one of those weekends. I went in knowing that I wanted to spoil myself a little and enjoy every minute, and it was amazing. Every weekend, yes, please, thank you. I was able to see some old friends, make some new friends, and eat A LOT of awesome food. If I was a normal blogger, I would have probably documented the whole thing a lot better, but sometimes you just cannot encompass a feeling into a photo.

A few days prior I celebrated a birthday, my 23rd to be exact. Twenty-three. I know that to a lot of people that seems young, I have been told over and over again, but to me it's that age where I thought I would have everything figured out. Growing up I always thought 23 would be the age I would be when I got married, had my own house, really figured out life. Obviously, I thought a lot would change before this time in life :) but there is a saying that I have been thinking about a lot lately..  "Grow where you have been planted". Often I think of myself more as a tumbleweed, still looking for a comfy place, moving about constantly, but growing slowly over time. I have a hard time realizing that this is where I'm at right now, flourish and bloom here, now, not in 3 months, not when I move again, not when I'm older. Enjoy where I am at, look for ways to use my gifts here, be settled. 

God seems to be teaching me a lot lately about timing. Nothing ever seems quick enough or to my own planned pace. I have a whole list of things I would have liked to complete yesterday. I see my life differently than God has planned for me, I do not always realized why the timing is the way it is, but I try to remember that God has perfect timing, if I can just remember to give up my prayers and concerns to Him first and wait for guidance. I don't know where I see my life in 2 months, or in 2 years, or 20, but I know that my faith needs to be steadfast, I know that there is a plan for me, and that even the little things like getting the stomach flu, missing a class, and sitting in traffic, everything has been far planned in advanced. I need to only rest and enjoy the ride. Don't stress about the things you have no control over, but live your life to glorify God, pray for guidance, and grow where God has planted you... and enjoy spontaneous, perfect vacations, that only come once in a while. :)